Rating: 5 stars
Ben Foreman has been in the closet for his entire life, settling for making his parents happy rather than living his own life. In fact, for a while, Ben’s denial of his homosexuality and his efforts to comply/defend his parents values, that is cost him his best friend, Clark, and his younger out and proud gay brother, Noah who happens to be Clark’s partner. So yes, his life was complications piled on top of lies, repeat, and the stress was getting to him.
Then Micah Trains, litigator extraordinaire, joins Ben’s firm and all Ben’s carefully built walls come crashing down around him. Micah happens to be both gorgeous and gay and attracted to Ben. Ben sees in Micah someone he wants to spend the rest of his life with, no matter what his brain is saying. As one date leads to another, Ben keeps messing up the relationship until Micah breaks up with him. Faced with Micah’s loss, Ben must finally choose who he is going to be and how he will live his life, by his parents standards or his. It’s time Ben decides just what the truth is!
I loved this book! C. Cardeno kept me frustrated with Ben, laughing with him and sometimes sobbing right along with him on his journey to self awareness and a life worth living in every respect. C. Cardeno’s characterizations and spot on dialog were so wonderfully executed that the story zipped along and I was finishing the end before I knew it. Ben is so messed up at the beginning that it would be easy to write him off as a passive character who has not grown up enough to challenge his parents views and it shows how much he has lived in fear of their disapproval. It is extremely helpful to the reader’s understanding and ability to empathize with Ben that the story is told from his POV. In fact is almost becomes imperative that we understand where Ben is coming from so we don’t give up on his character. Just when we are getting a little too frustrated with Ben’s lack of progress with the decisions he needs to make, Ben’s is right there telling us in an aside that he is plenty frustrated with himself too. While this literary ploy might be considered too “cutsey” in other stories, I find that it worked well here and helped to pull the reader into Ben’s mindset and emotional state.
And the other characters C. Cardeno created to assist/love Ben into making the life adjustments necessary to become a whole man happy with who he is? They are just so real, so alive that they jumped off the pages at you. Whether it is Noah, Ben’s sarcastic and embittered gay brother or Micah’s hysterical parents, especially his mother, they all come across as someone you have met in your life or heard about. Each with their quirks, flaws, and many other human qualities front and center to be fully enjoyed and celebrated. The scenes with Micah’s mother and sister alone had me spewing across the Kindle and searching for papertowels to clean up the mess. I still giggle thinking about them. Priceless. And then there is the very real emotional cost of repressing your true self for so much of your life that no one knows who you really are including yourself.
In fact C. Cardeno has laid out a beautifully realistic book of one’s man’s journey to a happy fulfilled life, and the pitfalls he encountered or put up himself that had to be overcome before he could achieve his goals. As I said I loved this book and I think you will too. Don’t pass it up.
Cover art by Paul Richmond. Lovely cover, perfect for the story.
Other Books in the Home Series. It is helpful to read them in order but not necessary to enjoy the books:
Home Again (Home Series #1)
He Completes Me (Home Series #2)
Where He Ends And I Begin (Home Series #3)
Love At First Sight (Home Series #4)
Just What The Truth Is (Home Series #5)