Rating: 4.5 stars
Brad just had an epiphany, several actuality. Too bad it happens when his teammate bends over to expose his hairy ass in the communal shower. It’s not just his obvious physical reaction to the moment but all the moments leading up to this one that tells Brad that yes, he really is gay no matter how hard he has denied it. Now what is he going to do about it?
All his life Brad Feller has done what people expected of him. Huge physique? Athletics all through school into university, while a little voice in his head whispers he would be happier in home economics and cooking classes. Join a frat full of jocks because of a family legacy and expectations? Yeah, and because he needs to the money for school. Date girl after girl even after he starts to realize he is using them as a front? The answer is yes to his growing shame. And then there is Sebastian, his TA in the History classes he took for graduation. Sebastian is gorgeous, cool, hot and oh so out. Sebastian is also the star performer in all of Brad’s dreams and hopes. Brad wants to come out but doesn’t know how. His whole world is about to change.
Sebastian is aware of the hot jock watching him in class. A straight guy , the Frat Boy, right? But a meeting over a paper and Brad himself tells Sebastian a different story. Brad wants him and Sebastian is only too happy to oblige, take a teacher roll as it were. But the sex between them is more than hot, it is mind blowing, and perhaps something more than Sebastian wants to admit. Can Frat Boy and Toppy admit to the changing relationship between them and grasp the love within their reach?
This book more than met my expectations. I had expected a cute, somewhat fluffy enjoyable book about coming out and opposites attracting. This was so much more. Let’s start with characterization, which for me is always the driving force behind terrific books. Brad Feller is such a surprising character. Yes, his exterior is that of a intimidating jock but his interior? Inside he is an almost excruciatingly vulnerable young man trying to understand his sexuality along with his need to be safe and loved. That his inner voice is also honest and humorous is a huge plus as well. Brad is well aware of the dichotomies he represents, the brooding jock exterior versus the uncertain, insecure, shy young man he really is. Years of hiding his real self has also isolated him as he keeps even his so called friends at arms length. Tenino has done such an excellent job in creating Brad that from the first inner mumblings of Brad’s thoughts on his life and sexuality, I was hooked. Not only hooked but in love. How could you not fall in love with a compassionate, funny, gay chef in jocks clothing who first gets in touch with his inner sub by interacting with his hair brush in a way not sanctioned by its manufacturer. Trust me, I was choking in laughter over that one and you will too.
And then there is Sebastian. In other hands, I am sure he could come across as a complete jerk, a player with a revolving door in his bedroom. But again Anne Tenino gives us a complicated, totally real person who is more than a match for our Brad. Sebastian appreciates Brad and truly sees the real person Brad is while totally appreciating the gorgeous body toned through constant workouts and athletics. Sebastian too must work through his own issues before he can accept the fact that what he is feeling is love for Brad and not just an appreciation of their great sex life. Sebastian is deserving of Brad’s love, it just takes him some time to realize it.
There is wonderful humor throughout the entire story. This includes one of the most memorably funny coming out scenes I have read recently. I laughed until I cried, trust me it’s hilarious. This story has it all. Pitch perfect dialog, outstanding characters, very hot sex scenes (waving fan) and a heart warming tale of coming out and coming to terms with who you really are. I wanted more, much more of Brad and Sebastian, that was my only complaint. So will you. You really don’t want to miss this story. It’s that great. Trust me.
Cover: What a great cover. Cover artist is LC Chase and I think they did a wonderful job. Loved it.