
Rating: 3.25đ
I missed this book when it first came out and am now playing catch-up prior to the release of Code: Blue, the second in the Atrous series about a rock band.
The story is told only from the perspective of Roscoe Hall, the personal manager of rockstar Maddox Kershaw. Maddox is one of five boy band members of the super group Atrous who have played together since they were teenagers.
We miss all the history of both men and drop into the band and the menâs relationship at a point when the band has reached superstardom and itâs taken a substantial toll on themselves, and those around them.
But mostly itâs impacting Maddox whoâs hiding something important from everyone.
Walker does a realistic job in portraying (as much as you can without living it) what that intense, controlling, isolating lifestyle might do to a person, especially if theyâve been living it for closer to a decade. Itâs sounds not only exhausting but frankly unlivable no matter how much they pay.
The story concentrates, naturally on Maddox, whoâs breaking down, and his relationship with Roscoe, whoâs loved him for years but kept it professional. Thereâs a age gap (not that it makes a difference) but I have to admit something about the manager/client aspect and Maddoxâs fragility bothered me. He kept saying Roscoe was the only one he trusted as he was coming apart, there were clear lines, contractual ones, between them, that got ignored by both. That bothers me too. Too many things just didnât ring right here.
So that relationship just didnât gel for me.
Great characters, just not the romance.
With Maddox finally admitting to his anxiety / panic disorders , and acknowledging he needed professional help, having someone who was both your boyfriend and manager seems like additional stress as well.
The depiction of Maddox undergoing a panic attack, displaying characteristics of someone with an anxiety disorder is very believable. You feel for him and the strain heâs under.
This is where it would have been wonderful to have had Maddoxâs pov, actually we needed it throughout the story. It felt lacking without his voice filling in his viewpoint on their history, relationships (personal and professional), and his illnesses.
And that wasnât the only area I felt we needed more. Thereâs five band members. Supposedly all so close they are like brothers. But as I read the book the only other band member I felt I had even a smidge of knowledge of his personality was Jeremy. The others? Nothing.
They are a blank, totally odd for a band, even a close one, that lives 24/7 together. Whereâs the every day ups and downs of enforced togetherness? Missing.
I got no sense of there even being a band. And this is a series about a band.
Could have been about any famous group of people..
I missed that about this story. A sense of foundation. Of being centered in something. Atrous itself isnât there.
Perhaps it will come along in books to come.
Iâm going onto Code: Blue because N.R. Walker is a auto buy for me and I want to see what happens with Jeremy whoâs up next. And Steve, because other than Jeremy, heâs the other name I can remember here.
If youâre a Walker fan, youâve read this and have your hands on the second story. If youâre new to the series and author, I tell you ( lots others will to ) go find Red Dirt series which remains one of my all time fav series and reads!
Atrous series:
â Code: Red #1
⊠Code: Blue #2
https://www.goodreads.com âș showCode Red (Atrous, #1) by N.R. Walker | Goodreads
Synopsis:
Maddox Kershaw is the main vocalist of the worldâs biggest boy band. Heâs at the top of every music chart, every award show, every social media platform, and every sexiest-man-alive list. Heâs the bad boy, the enigma, the man everyone on the planet wants a piece of.
Heâs also burned out and exhausted, isolated and lonely. Not in a good headspace at the start of a tour.
Roscoe Hall is Maddoxâs personal manager. His job is high-flying, high-demand, high-profile, and he loves it. Maddox has consumed his entire life for the past four years. Roscoe knows him. He sees the real Maddox no one else gets to see.
Heâs also in love with him.
When the tour and stress become too much, when the world begins to close in, Roscoe becomes Maddoxâs lifeline. But as Maddox knows already, and as Roscoe is about to learn, the brighter the spotlight, the darker the shadow.








